If you haven't noticed, I've been kind of having issues. I have little to no interest in my own art and writings, I have little motivation to do anything, I can't seem to find anything to spark my interest, and I can't even seem to have fun with most stuff I normally do. Fun things aren't even fun anymore. You've probably all seen the lack of deviations coming in and even the lack of stupid polls all the time like I used to do. The simple answer? I've probably fallen into a sort of depression.
This is something I have dealt with before. Most of the time I do just want to sleep or I end up just sitting somewhere doing nothing. Or thinking "I should be doing this but it'll turn out awful and no one cares". Sadly I kind of know the signs. A few years back you may remember that I had the same issue but it was way worse. This time around it doesn't seem so bad but I still feel like I need a push of sorts.
I'm trying to avoid going to the doctor to get on antidepressants again but it may be something I need to do. The strategies I learned through the therapy I had last time don't seem to be helping at all anymore. Looking at things from different angles, trying to just spend some time for myself, not comparing myself to others (or trying to see what they're doing and why they're succeeding, etc.), and so on and so forth aren't working.
So I'm just letting you all know. No I'm not suicidal. Yes it kind of has taken me a while to get back to the whole "Guess what? I'm depressed" conclusion. No I'm not looking for sympathy. If anything, I'm trying to avoid going back on the medication in the first place. I didn't have a terrible time with them the first time but they did mess up my body a bit and I kind of never recovered XD; So any strategies for kicking my butt into gear and having fun again would be appreciated.
Thank you all for your kind comments on the polls that I have been asking for feedback on. I know I haven't replied due to me just avoiding dA in general. I'll get the stuff I owe done. I'll get to the big projects I need to. The thing is, I just need to figure out this problem first and get back to a happier state before I end up getting worse. I know people say "Well you gotta do things to make you happy to get over your depression!" and they usually mean it in a rude way. I got over my last bought of it by being more positive and trying really hard to do things I really enjoy. I'm going to try again. Perhaps antidepressants are the kick I need but who knows?
Here, have some art that makes me happy right now XD
[This ones doesn't want to be a thumb Manly Men